I had to feed him to silence his fit. I am tired. Every time someone wants to hang out, I just cringe at the… I’m so sorry you went through that. OMG Thank you for this, I love my baby girl but I’m so exhausted of taking care of her, I am a working mom and when I’m home all I do is be with her or do house chores, I am in a zombie like state every day, it’s nice to read that I’m not alone…. I had planned to self-wean, as you may know, but I found myself too touched out to enjoy our nursing relationship any longer and I didn’t want to remember it in an ugly way, because it was truly beautiful, even the hard bits. Nobody that knows me understands these feelings I have and I am constantly being told that I am wrong for feeling this way and that I “need help”. It’s so real and honest and I don’t know a single mother who hasn’t felt this way. Surely I would come out of those long, desperate, sleepless nights glowing with motherly love, just happy to have been able to offer my screaming child even a modicum of comfort. Last week, there was a snow day. Around 2 I did however begin to schedule his feedings vs not.. that helped. You have no idea. I love my son so much but being a young single mom is so hard, much harder than I thought. Take care and keep writing. I had an awful toddler day and typed in “sometimes life is fucking hard with a toddler” into Google and came on your blog. I hope things get better for you. If you are growing bored or tired of being pregnant, you're not alone. It’s so brave and I rarely hear such honest accounts of motherhood, mental health, what it’s like to have children. It is especially hard when the kids are young. His meds make him worse. And you know what sucks the most? I know you posted this a long time ago but THANK YOU . Parenting is tough work. Embrace and accept. I feel for all of you, just starting on the journey of motherhood. I’m glad I’ve found you and I’ve just subscribed to your blog. Thank you. Anyway, so glad to have found this blog. Mine are now teens and I love my life, but when they were small it was 24/7 non stop WORK. Because, up until that moment in my life, there had always been a later. Much, much less. Posts tagged I’m tired of being a mom Say Good-Bye to Mother Fatigue. How can you love being a mom so much and hate it at the same time? ” “I said go to bed.” “If you get up one more time!”. I find that parents whose children have grown forget how all-consuming and rage-inducing the early years can be, especially when you’re sleep-deprived. Don’t wait for him to sleep through the night. I would gladly stay here overnight and work the entire time. After all, we can’t look after our kids well unless we look after ourselves too. Give me a freaking break to those of you who think I'm being mean / callous / ungrateful. 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I’ve become really good at cutting off nursing sessions, and Theo will repeat me when I say “all done!” or “last one!” (as in “last side” because he always asks to nurse on the other side … then the other side … then the other side). Necessary cookies are absolutely essential for the website to function properly. How? Ask for help…but do not moan. Please make sure you find help when you need it, you and your son both deserve to be looked after and live in a loving environment. Definitely not planned. I’ve felt like this for a couple weeks, I have a 4 month old, and everytime the thought woukd come into my head I feel SO bad for even thinking it. We complain and we’re so tired. After Theo was born, people kept reminding me to sleep when he slept. Most of the time, I mom so hard, y’all. I remember being at that “My kid is 2 and STILL hasn’t slept through the night ” stage. We talked about it every time we went to nurse. I was sure that motherhood was going to be so fulfilling. “Sleep training is akin to child abuse”!? he slept fine for few weeks then again up for reflux. I’m on the ball. They don’t need me to break down or lose myself. But have you ever just felt so tired? Wouldn’t change it for the world. Read More. I plan. I punish. But you can do that in a way that doesn’t negate yourself. Like, truly stronger. Sometimes I am tired of being a mom too, but much less than I did this time last year. Our love for our children keeps us going. Know why? Nobody will watch her because like I said she screams bloody murder with bottles. “Don’t push your brother”. After years of loving care, changing diapers and thousand of meals served comes the joy of graduation. I love him, and I love being his mom, but sometimes I’m so tired of being a mom, anyone’s mom. Create a free website or blog at WordPress.com. She calls Dr. Laura for help. If it feels overwhelmingly hard or bad, it really will help to talk it out with someone — about the things you wrote here. Thank you again for sharing this. My mom had to get up at three in the morning and put me in that car seat to drive me around the neighborhood until I fell back asleep. I’m very task oriented, so having a job with defined roles, expectations, and payment for my efforts fit me perfectly. Especially when I'm trying to overcome and recover from alcoholism and depression. “Eat your dinner. I needed this. This speaks to exactly what I’m facing nowadays! You have no idea. I’m not even finished with college. I'm Elle, a mom of 4 super bright and extremely active children, a wife of 11+ years, a former educator and educational entrepreneur, and a children's book writer. I thought I would miss it like a hole in my heart. It does not mean you will leave or that you don't love them. Good luck, and don’t be so hard on yourself. I’m the oldest kid in my house. ( Log Out /  As feminists we need to talk more openly about motherhood. I was so set. I'm just a mom. Hi! Hi there. It was huge changes. Sometimes I wish I wasn’t alive. I’m tired of being woken up 3 times a night to “tuck me in? Don’t judge other people’s journeys. Well, it turned out to be me, and they swear, from age zero to two, the only time I wasn’t crying was when I was strapped into my car seat. It really isn’t easy. The oldest is almost 16. A lot. I had the good fortune to make my main “hobby” my lifestyle and livelihood, so it was a huge part of my identity. I would strongly suggest seeking a bit of help on this because i now have a 4 month old and am undergoing similar sleep deprivation…but reading your story made me feel a bit uncomfortable. Anyway, I don’t have anything super helpful other than yeah…I can relate to a lot of what you are saying. I love him, and I love being his mom, but sometimes I’m so tired of being a mom, anyone’s mom. tiny. Yes. Ps. Maybe you yelled. But you will survive and you are a good mom, and it will be fine. I know you have also. You wrote this post a long time ago and will probably never see my comment, but I must chime in with the others and say thank you. Moms, we get pulled in a thousand different directions. Get it here! Of course I (and many others who I have talked with) get tired of being a mom and a wife. I can be strong. I thought I was the Enter your email address to follow this blog and receive notifications of new posts by email. Each of your purchases via our Amazon affiliation links supports this site at no additional cost to you. I’ve written lots on similar subjects to this on my blog, you can find it at http://www.mummykindness.com . I’ve been crying for the last 15 minutes. Sometimes I just want to be myself. Thing is, I, just like you, was too in love to break his little heart, too wussy to take on those long sleep training nights, too alone in the battle to take on any advice from another “mother”-in-arms. The. I have 2 boys, 1 who slept in his bed at 4 and cried every time he couldn’t sleep with me, I was pregnant. . Ghadeir. Actually, I probably started hearing it way before then, but it’s likely that I didn’t pay much attention. Talked about it through the day. This website uses cookies to improve your experience. Right now I’m just focusing on setting reasonable limits. “I’m tired of being a mom”: 5 tips for buildinglife with a child after a year. I know I’m breaking down emotionally. You know what, quite often I’m really tired. But we are only human. You feel the way you do because you should listen. This really resonated with me. Installing Sanity Mom Tee available in black, red, kelly green, dark heather, & heather blue. Everyday I ask myself why?!?! I’m sure it will get better. Just like “sleep when the baby sleeps” has become an axiom, so too, “these years will pass so fast you won’t believe it.” I have 3 kids whom I adore and who drive me stark raving bonkers at the same time. Worst. In all the months I’d spent preparing to have a kid, I’d never fully realized what it would be like to have a kid. Ha! He is an independent and loving 2 yr old. Sometimes I hate being a mom. I feel you so much! He is sick all the time, allergies and reflux. I don’t do daycare either at the moment (and I don’t know your circumstances) but maybe something like that would give you the break you need? I do miss my old life. With that thought came a bizarre mixture of guilt over wanting to go back to my non-baby life, and blind panic of the “holy shit I have a kid, what the fuck have I just done?” variety. To that child you are there everything and they are too young to understand that we are on pins and needles and im not going to lie somedays I want to jump off cliff, other days im too tired, rest of the days im just like whatever you want. Change ), You are commenting using your Facebook account. Because I am too tired and too wussy to do anything about it. I enjoy my kids now, and the good things they bring now. I just talked to three family members and non of them understand. I am tired. I'm so tired of being a mom. We talk about woman’s work as being undervalued, but a mothers’ work particularly gets missed from the conversation. Actually the now 7 yr old is a little insecure though he slept with me most of his life. There is also a benefit to being a mom that you have probably never thought of. – Sylvia Plath, http://womensmentalhealth.org/posts/category/postpartum-psychiatric-disorders/. When they are away at college and you are awake in the middle of the night in a cold sweat thinking about all the bad things that can happen to them and you aren’t there. Glancing at your tags, I thought, “wow, she’s writing about the same things I am!” (although much more prolifically) I had to follow the parenting tag, and, viola’, here I am. So, Mom’s I encourage you to relax, enjoy the craziness that comes with being a wife and mother, and freely receive and give the beautiful gift of grace on this journey. There are ways to combat these feelings as you count down the days until you get to … Best wishes, And then so many women today walk around feeling silenced with any thoughts and feelings that they have toward motherhood and children that sway from complete joy, happiness and gratitude. There isn’t really a point to this story, I just hoped I would make you smile. Down when I 'm at the same thing via our Amazon affiliation links supports this site at no additional to! 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